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I M I S S Y O U S O M U C H !

C A N Y O U U N D E R S T A N D I T ?

:')

hey :D
for this morning , i said "happy 4months anniversary sayang :)"
glad to have you in 4months , i really love you , until now. do you realize it ? i hope yeah :) thankyou for loving me.

for this afternoon , i said "thankyou , goodbye :("
i'm sorry for all my mistakes , i don't know what's wrong with us but we've to broke up. that's so hurt me but it's okay , i know the reasons why and i can understand.

and for this evening , i said "hey, i miss you so much, can you come back ?"
i don't know about my feelings now. i feel happy , glad , desperate , sad , crazy , badmood , etc. and i don't know what you feel , do you feel the same ? i hope.

and for the finally..
i love you but this is the fact , we can't keep our relationship and this is the end. we broke up and try to move on. maybe hard for me , maybe for you too. but we must do it , we can't like this. and i don't want to always crying for someone who no longer be mine. i really really glad to have you yesterday , this is so hurt me , we broke up in our's day. it's okay it's okay , i can handle it.
thankyou so much for everything , for rumma , for easterday , for your love , your care , your times , and much.
i'm sorry for all my mistakes , i'm sorry if i've hurt you yesterday..

see you soon , i still love you , take care , don't be naughty , goodbye :')

3months with you :')

3 months 3 months 3 months ..
quickly also turns out we already 3 months now, until now I still don;t think that you're back with me again.
yes we've a lot coz it together for 3 months, from joking together to fight together.
all experience with you :)
I really want to taste past 9 years to come and directly into 2020, I wanted a quick marriage! the exact same as you haha

thank god for 3 months, thanks for the experience you've given to us. we hopefully everlasting :)
i love you bep :*

fuckin great quote !

" BE A GIRL WITH A MIND , NOT A B•TCH WITH AN ATTITUDE AND A LADY WITH CLASS "

‎​♥ ‎​♥

mooom ♥

when i hear this song ...

Mama
You gave life to me
Turned a baby into a lady

And mama
All you had to offer
Was a promise of a lifetime of love

Now I know
There is no other
Love like a mother's love for her child

And I know
love so complete
Someday must leave
Must say goodbye

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

Mamma
You gave love to me
Turned a young one into a woman

And mama
All I ever needed
Was a guarantee of you loving me

'Cause I know
There is no other
Love like a mother's love for her child

And it hurts so
That something so strong
Someday'll be gone, must say goodbye

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

But the love you givin me will always live
You'll always be there every time I fall
You are to me the greatest love of all

you take my weakness
and make me strong
And I will always love you
Till forever comes

And when you need me
I'll be there for you always
I'll be there your whole life through
I'll be there Please stop crying its me, mama

I'll be your beacon through your darkest night
I'll be your wings that guide your broken heart
I'll be your shelter through the raging storm
and I will love you till forever comes

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

'Till we meet again...
Until then...
Goodbye.....

honest I cried, I imagine how it all happened.
mama left me, if mama could forever? always there for me when I need you ma?
I'm sorry for all the mistakes I have done so far.
I apologize if it always makes my mom was disappointed, make mama sad, make mama mad or maybe make mama cry :(
for anything, I really love you ma, I'm afraid something will happen.
after hearing this song, the more I understand how much meaning a mama.
don't leave me alone ma, i love you :')

confused , tired with this trouble :((

ngga tau yah ini udah keberapa kalinya ngdebatin masalah ttg cewe itu.
gw udah bener-bener ngga tau mau ngmng apaan lagi, ngga tau musi ngmng apa ke tu cewe spaya dia ngdengerin kata-kata gw kemaren.
mau apapun gmanapun hubungan lo sama dia tuh tetep aja bikin gw jealous, dia mantan lo, sampe skrg masih pake aku kamu.
jujur gw kalo tau lo lagi sama dia, ato ngliat comment facebook, nyesek tau ngga, gw tuh nangis ! sakit rasanyaa :'(
tapi gw tetep nyoba sabar n ngertiin kalian, kalian 'temen', kalian 1 sekolah + 1 kelas, kalian ngurusin hal itu bareng-bareng.
ngerti gw ngerti banget, tapi apa salah kalo gw jd jealous ? apa salah kalo gw takut lo clbk ke dia ?

kalo lo mau tau, gw bikin blog ini sambil nangis malem-malem jem 12 ! gw ngga bsa tidur mikirin lo, gw takut, gw ngga tau musi gimana.
sumpah gw sayang banget sama lo pin, gw pengen lo slalu ada bwd gw, gw slalu nyoba bwd ngertiin lo, slalu yaa slalu.
please yaa lo jangan pernah berubah, gw yang sharusnya berubah jd ngga cemburuan, gw pengen bsa cuek kayak lo tapi gw ngga bsa ! gw tau lo welcome sama smw org, gw tau lo deket sama banyak org.
just please understand about me, everytime I always need you :(
maaf pin sama smwnya, gw nyesel kayak kemaren, gw nyesel jealous gtu tapi gw ngga bsa nahan rasa jealous itu.
makasih udah ngasih gw kesempatan, ngga akan gw sia-siain :')

Love you :'( ‎​♥ (˘⌣˘)ε˘`)

:'(

capek ? iya gw capek .
gw capek jd egois , gw capek kayak gini , gw cma usaha bwd SELALU ngertiin lo , usaha bwd SABAR .
gw musi gimana lagi sih ? udah brkali-kali gw sabar, gw ngertiin smwnya.
gw capek ngertiin tu cewe !! capek gw capeekk !!
kayak gini , sama dia ganggu tau ngga ?! kalo dia bsa jaga sikap, ngga akan ada ribut !
kalo dia tau diri , gw ngga akan kayak gini .
gw aja ngga pernah cerita sama cowonya skalipun itu SAHABAT gw, sms aja gw ngga mau !
mau tu cewe cerita sama temen-temennya kek, sendiri kek, intinya dia sama lo kan .__.

yang tdnya gw ngga mau nangis, gw jd nangis lagi.
tau ngga ? nangis bikin gw makin ke siksa !

gw sayang sama lo, sayang banget, gw ngga mau kayak gini keulang lagi :'(

you aren't the only good and handsome boy !

heh seneng banget sih bikin gw marah ?
udah sering banget yaa lo bikin gw marah , kesel , bete n ilfeel sama lo.
lo kira lo ganteng , imut , bae , kaya , n yang paling bener ? huuu NGGA SAMA SEKALI.
punya mulut ngga pernah bsa di jaga , seenak jidat kalo nglakuin sesuatu , sok brkuasa tapi takut sama pentolan kelas , sok kayak sok uptodate , sok imut ! ihhhh geliiii !
lo kalo ngmng sama gw udah kayak lagi ngmng sama cewe yang ngga pny otak yang ngga pny perasaan, seenaknya ngmng kata-kata yang sama skali ngga pantes lo omongin ke cewe.
nimpuk gw pake botol n sok ngga brsalah.
skrg ? lo nyindir-nyindir gw di twitter.
emg kenapa kalo gw sakit terus gw update status terus ? ada masalah bukan hey ?
palingan lo ngmngn gw sama temen-temen lo tuh, so what sih suka-suka gw mau ngpn juga.

sikap sifat lo tuh udah terlalu najisin tau ngga, masih ada aja yang mau temenan sama lo (¬_¬)

hey hey hey I MISS YOU :(

jeleeeeeeek !!!
lagi apa kmu :'(
kangen tau ngga kangen !
kmu kangen juga ngga ? mikirin aku ngga disana ?
moga yaaa :')

inget kata-kata aku kan lek ?
ngucapin kata-kata itu ngga sbelum kmu tidur ? hmm
aku ngga terlalu mikirin kmu doonngg, gara-gara kmu blg jangan banyak pikiran, jd aku ngga terlalu mikirin :D
tapi tetep aja banyak yang bikin aku kangen ! banyak yang bikin aku inget terus sama kmu.
ada bbrp yang bikin aku badmood lek :(

n saat itu juga aku bener-bener butuh kmu, ngga ada yang bikin aku ketawa :(
aku kangen sekangen kangennya lek !
ini malem terakhir tanpa kmu.
take care ya jelek, I love you :*

him him him :))

god, by whatever, I really love him.
I beg you, keep him always, don't let my dream became a reality, just in a dream.
I know all this world there won't be eternal, but I want to be with him continue.
don't change him into another person, I was satisfied with him that it is now.
he always knows what is best for me, he is willing to accept me as it is, he is always dear to me, he could always make me happy.

honestly, I'm afraid whenever he disappeared suddenly. I like having a phobia, a strange phobia yaa -___-
I feel fear first incident happen again, as I was afraid I would badmood and cry. what's it all mean ? dear God don't like that anymore, I don't want!

he ? he's already too perfect for me
he ? everything for me
he ? people who I want now yesterday and soon
he ? he's the best
certainly, i love him so much ;))

say hello to my old love ♥

BLOGGER !!!! AAAAAAAA !!!!

ngga nyangka kan ? haaayaaaaah gw juga ngga nyangka.
ngga kepikiran kan ? haaayaaaaah gw juga ngga kepikiran.
ngga kebayangkan gimana ? haaayaaaaah gw juga ngga kebayang.
seneng ngga sih ? haaayaaaaah SENENG BANGET !!! okey cukup ya bertele-telenya -_-

gw kira semenjak wkt itu, gw udah ngga mau ngarep banyak-banyak, yang ada di otak gw cma 'yaudalah, kalo emg jodoh pasti balik n nepatin janjinya' lalalalala~ cma banyak doa aja, sabar.
eh emg bener, jodoh ngga kemana :D

o9.o1.11 , 12.oo / 12.o4 with Malvin Emanuel , again (˘⌣˘)ε˘`)
emg biasa aja sih sebenernya, cma hello ! ngga mungkin kalo ngga seneng, ngga mungkin kalo gw nangis tp nangisnya nangis gara-gara seneng haaaaaaaaa :D


thanks God for..
-> I've love a second chance for him, make the fix all that already incident first.
-> already made him like before, who love me very similar.
-> already grant all requests, prayers me during this past year.
-> already made me feel happy, feel've got everything.
-> already gave me someone who can always support me, can always give me many lessons, and can make me change from all my bad habits.

gw ngga tau udah berapa puluh kali blg makasih ke Tuhan, gpapa dong yaaa :')
dia emg ngelarang ini itu, nyuru ini itu. tapi ngga tau kenapa, gw ngga bsa kalo ngga ngelakuin apa yang dia larang ato yang dia suru. skrg gw jd suka makan sayur, udah mulai rajin, udah rada males nyari masalah sama guru, makan 3x sehari, apa lagi ya ? hmm skrg juga tiap dia tidur, gw jd ikutan ngantuk, hebat °\(ˆ▽ˆ)/° yaaaah gw tau, smw yang dilakuin bwd kebaean gw juga hmm n itu kebukti.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!

SAYANG BANGET SAMA YANG NAMANYA MALVIN EMANUEL ƪ(˘▽˘)┐ ƪ(˘▽˘)ʃ
MAKASIH YA JELEK UDAH KAYAK DULU LAGI, MAKASIH UDAH NEMENIN AKU N SEMOGA SELALU ADA BWD AKU YAA :')
ILYPJ ♥
and GOD, THANKYOU, FOR HIM AND FOR EVERYTHING ♥



" From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand and I knew that this was gonna be our time
I dont ever wanna lose this feeling,
I don't wanna spend a moment apart

'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side,
that's why I love you

Everyday that I'm here with you,
I know that it feels right, (so right, so right)
and I've just had to be near you every day and every night,
(every night)
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me

'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side and thats why I love you

And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me

'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
That's why I love you
'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you "